Dilema

I feel like shouting out loud here. But I cant. Coz I know this is too public. Tho nobody will ever read all these craps that I wrote anyways. 

But...

Arghh. I am desperate for a hug right now. But I cant have one here. Not right now. I dont know. I know there is something fishy going on around here. But I never thought that the news is... 

Now I kinda feel grateful. But I was kinda scared. But I somehow feel sad too. I just dont know how to express it. Damn it.

I kinda know how you feel.

But I dont exactly know how it feels.

Stay strong you girl.

Rindu Padamu...

kenapa moody sayang??

anak mama !!

comelnya !! :')

run along, baby !!

jom rempit sama !! :O

anggunnya adik. 

comel laa ketap bibir camtu?? :')

lincah sekarang ye??

us !!

sakit tapi bahagia?? :O

pak ngah !! emo. hahaha

baby !!

innocent.

animal lover. 

Aku terlalu rindukan hambaMu yang bernama Ayra Nurqalesya ya Allah.

Terlalu. Teramat. Sungguh.

Indescribable.

You gives me a heart to love somebody O Allah. And now this love is growing stronger and stronger. I sometimes just cant bear with it O Allah. This love is too painful. I cant see her growing. I cant see her walking. I cant see her playing. I cant see her laughing. I cant see her jumping.

At some point, she would not even know who I am. When i get back, if and only if i get back to Malaysia, which I dont want to, she would have start going to school and such. My presence would not have any significant in her life.

Sometimes I feel as if it is better for me to not exist in her world at all, completely. I love her too much.

IDK.

It is all up to You O Allah. You know what's best for us. Please sends this abundance love of mine to her O Allah.

Thanks Allah, for bringing her into my life. :')