I just burnt my lunch. Yeahh my lunch. Rasa sedih sangat. :/
No lunch for me. :/ Dont feel like cooking some more. Roti pun xd. :/
Feel like crying. In desperate need of a hug.
Then... (jeng jeng jeng)
Memang sangat memerlukan seketul pelukan. Buat meredakan gelojak perasaan (cewahh) selepas lunch sendiri terbakar. Memandang kanan dan kiri, aku tau xkan ada pelukan yang bakal tiba. Mungkin kerana tiada mereka (Malaysians) di sini buat peneman jiwa.
Then again...
Even if I have Ain (Fall depan baru duduk sama), I still cant have the hugs that I want. Sekadar lunch yg terbakar, apa barang sgt laa kau nak mintak hug2 bagai ni kann?? Sedih broo sedih. Hati aku macam puding tau?? :O
Then summore...
Aku ni besar, montel, empuk. Dr dulu aku je yg bg hugs kat org, protect org, make org feel better, in which I feel good doing em, I feel happy. I dont mind. But when I need one...
Sometimes...
I ask stupid questions to myself. Kdg2 I feel afraid of those questions too. Mcm mempersoal takdir pun ada. Why this?? Why that??
WHY?? WHY?? WHY??
Then...
NO !! I need to learn on how to comfort myself, to not being absorbed in those sad feelings, to see positively in every that happens in my live, to see things in another point of view.
CAKAP SENANG LAA BRO...
I wish...
To have a husband right beside me. (gatal -_-" ish ish ish...) Whom i can run to when I feel sad or anything, when I want a hug to comfort me or just wrap his hands around me whenever I feel like it. (Ni pasti gara2 overdose anime and Korean movies - Coffee Prince the latest. ehemm...)
But then...
I know it would be far away. Since I still have quite something in my hands to be taken care of. Plus, getting married is NOT in my future plans due to certain circumstances, in other words, I dont want to get married at all. But having babies is quite something thus making adoption quite an interesting plan for me. :D
Sorry for rambling around nonsense, crappy stuffs. Thanks for reading it till the end.
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