Summer Training Camp

Here we go again. Hello uolls. (ni kenapa aku berjangkit si Nas ni?? -_-" ) Dah lama kita tak berjumpa kann?? :O

So, last weekend, June 14 - 17, weolls menapak ke Natchez Trace State Park, Tennessee. Weolls as in me, Ain, Nasrul and Faiz gemukk. :O

Long story short, camp tu best laa jugak. Not bad. Jumpa ramai org, main air, hiking, jaga budak2, etc. However, aku rasa ada sedikit terkilan. Aku xtau kenapa. Maybe I had higher expectations over STC itself. Oh yeahh !! And to make matter worse, I kinda compare it with WiRe. 

To those who dont  know, WiRe stands for Winter Retreat, a bible camp that i attended few months back.

Mungkin sbb STC tahun ni kurang seronok compared to STC tahun lepas (bak kata Nas) coz I wasnt even here to even attend last year's. 

Mungkin jugak sbb number of people yg attend this year's is lesser. Ummmph dia kurg sikit. Kononnya laa. 

Mungkin juga sbb aku xberapa nak kenal ngn org2 yg ada camp tu. Aku xrasa as if I am a part of them. Aku rasa mcm org asing. Sbb prior to WiRe, I already know all of them. So, I  feel belonged. But STC ni, hampehh. Even time aku jumpa kawan2 aku dr other uni pun, aku xrasa seseronok dulu. Coz maybe time and distance kinda change us to be a lil bit different than what we used to be. Walau nampak pada mata kasarnya kami mesra kelaut. :O 

Macam ni. :O

Tapi hati ini tetap berasa jauh. :O And I dont like that. 

Idk. I dont want them to know me as deep as my other circle of friends knew me. But at the same time, I want to be treated the same. Unfair, isnt it?? I dont want to allow them to cross the boundaries yet I want them to be able to see what's on the other side. Cruel me. 

But it is too scary.

Hey hey hey. 

Lari topik dah ni. Back to STC then. So, that's basically it. 

Toodles~