Love

"To love at all is to be vulnerable." - C.S Lewis

Yeahh yeahh. I know. Total BS. What is love anyway??

Being in the midst of everything. Trying so hard to just be able to put a band-aid over your torn-apart heart. To hope real hard then get crushed on. To trust someone just to be back-stabbed. To hell with everything.

Being love deprived is another thing. That's why humans live in a community ehh?? So that they wont die inside out. Well, even within the community, people still die anyways. Typical humans. Killing each other from the inside. That's what they do best.

Humans. Cehh. What is human anyways??

Altruism vs egoism. I would say egoism won over everything. Humans show it. They show it all. What a broken world this Earth is.

Sometimes when I look into the mirror, I just cant recognize who's standing in front of me. 

Who am I?? What I am?? What do I like or dont like??

Everything's so black. Not grey but totally black. Total blackhole. 

Having a vivid imagination might be a good thing. Some people said. However, having it ever since you know how to think straight, not right but straight, is such a suffering.

This anger. This anger of mine, it is no longer containable. I totally need a vessel to rely on, to be by my side every single time, to take care of me. Im just so sick of myself that sometimes I only see one thing. Hahaha

I'm tired of thinking everything rationally. What's the use of it??

Who's that?? Me?? Who's me?? :O

The question of the day for every single day. 

Trying to fulfill everybody's expectation though it is against your own dreams. For what?? This broken world?? Cehh. People expect you to be nice and good, hypocrite there you are. People want you to be a doctor, fame and name there you go. But what about what I want?? Who the hell care about what I want anymore. 

Even I dont care about what I want anymore. How could I when I dont know what I want anymore. I just cant think of something that I really wanna go for. None, zilch, nil.

Dont be ridiculous. I don't wanna die yet. Yet.