I thought I am okay with everything that happened. But nope. That's not the case. I really hope so. I feel betrayed, feel crushed. Goddamnit you fucking humans. Don't you really have anything else to do besides fanning other people's shit??
If that is not enough, you'll create one and splatter it across the vast ocean till every corner of the earth is covered with it.
I don't think I would be able to keep everybody by my side anymore. I just couldn't help it. Sorry guys. I would not include you guys anymore in my life. It is just too messed up. Sometimes I feel like blaming other people for the choices I made. Especially when things turned out to be the exact opposite of what I hoped for. But I know that I had a choice. But sometimes things do influenced by others. Humans. Pffftt.
I just hope that someday when we meet again, you would accept me the way I am. But worst come to worst, you guys would judge me again and the same thing would happen all over again.
I just realized that all these while, I have been living my life as if how others want me to live. I have never really know what I want, what I like, what I don't like, what I want to be, what I am hoping for. None.
These expectations, from these people, from these so-called moral guides, from these community, from these 3rd world minds, they are killing me right now.
I really feel that I haven't been able to breath. Really suffocated by these people around me. They said I am in the wrong party. Just because they belong to a totally different community. But that doesn't mean that everything has changed or I have lost myself.
To be honest, I haven't really found myself. I never have found myself at all. It is wrong to judge, discriminate, stereotype, you name it. Those group of people that they have judged, at least they made me laugh, they made me feel belonged, they made me feel loved, they made me feel like I am living my life, they made me appreciate myself, they made me not afraid of being me, and the most important is they made me ME!!
Who are you to come to my life and change it however you like?? HOW DARE YOU STEP A FOOT IN MY FUCKING LIFE AND DESTROY IT?? It is your right to judge whatever you feel like judging. Fuck like I care. BUT HOW COULD YOU SHOVE DOWN YOUR OPINION DOWN OTHER'S THROAT??
No matter how hard I tried to ignore it, I couldn't help it. I wasn't raised with love. I wasn't introduced to forgiveness. I wasn't familiar with... DAMN IT!!
Just go away. GO AWAY !! I am not done yet.
If that is not enough, you'll create one and splatter it across the vast ocean till every corner of the earth is covered with it.
I don't think I would be able to keep everybody by my side anymore. I just couldn't help it. Sorry guys. I would not include you guys anymore in my life. It is just too messed up. Sometimes I feel like blaming other people for the choices I made. Especially when things turned out to be the exact opposite of what I hoped for. But I know that I had a choice. But sometimes things do influenced by others. Humans. Pffftt.
I just hope that someday when we meet again, you would accept me the way I am. But worst come to worst, you guys would judge me again and the same thing would happen all over again.
I just realized that all these while, I have been living my life as if how others want me to live. I have never really know what I want, what I like, what I don't like, what I want to be, what I am hoping for. None.
These expectations, from these people, from these so-called moral guides, from these community, from these 3rd world minds, they are killing me right now.
I really feel that I haven't been able to breath. Really suffocated by these people around me. They said I am in the wrong party. Just because they belong to a totally different community. But that doesn't mean that everything has changed or I have lost myself.
To be honest, I haven't really found myself. I never have found myself at all. It is wrong to judge, discriminate, stereotype, you name it. Those group of people that they have judged, at least they made me laugh, they made me feel belonged, they made me feel loved, they made me feel like I am living my life, they made me appreciate myself, they made me not afraid of being me, and the most important is they made me ME!!
Who are you to come to my life and change it however you like?? HOW DARE YOU STEP A FOOT IN MY FUCKING LIFE AND DESTROY IT?? It is your right to judge whatever you feel like judging. Fuck like I care. BUT HOW COULD YOU SHOVE DOWN YOUR OPINION DOWN OTHER'S THROAT??
No matter how hard I tried to ignore it, I couldn't help it. I wasn't raised with love. I wasn't introduced to forgiveness. I wasn't familiar with... DAMN IT!!
Just go away. GO AWAY !! I am not done yet.
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