Camping Day 1

Now here I am, at the Lake Waubesa Bible Camp. Hooyeahh. I go to a bible camp now. So what do you want to do?? Hit me with a stick?? Go ahead. :P

So far, it was good. During the ice breaking session, Billy created a clap thing that requires us to move forward then backwards when we touch the person next to you. Guess what?? The positions were mixed up due to smaller groups from before. I was quite worried at first as to my left, there was Ben (I think that is his name. I think. Or is it Sam??) Nvm then. The game was about to start. I was like Oh no-ing in my heart. Who could actually hear it huh?? I guess God does. :) Coz pooff !! Out of nowhere, Kristi came and were squiggling in between us. I saw her about few spaces from me before. I didnt even know that she would do that. I didnt even know that she ever know what I was thinking. So, that touchy feely kinda things creep up inside me. I feel like hugging her really tight, squeezing the air out of her lungs. That is how much I love her that moment.

Then it was the discussion session. We were required to answer and discuss few questions. Those were mind-blowing. POOF !! There you go again. Hahaha I have never ask myself those sort of questions before.   Somehow those questions made me wonder about my real relationship with God. Have I done enough to please Him?? Do I really live because of Him?? Or do I only focus on temporary earthly things only?? Mindblown. No joke. 

The worshiping part. The songs have that kind of touchy feely too. Xtipu bro. Out of nowhere, I felt angry, I clenched my fist in my pocket. Chelsea suddenly came and hug me. I cried. Hahaha Silly me. 

I feel stupid. Really stupid.

Crying is stupid.

"Oh, how He loves us,

Oh how He loves us, 

Oh how He loves us..."

(How He Loves - the name of the song if you feel like finding it)

May tomorrow be a better day for me.

This is suppose to be posted 2 nights ago. But due to some technical difficulties, I wrote it down and only now I posted it. :)